Book Review: On His Knees by Adira August (proceeds through May 31 go to Russian LGBT Network)

On His Knees by Adira August book cover

  • Book: On His Knees (RiverHart Book 5)
  • Author: Adira August
  • Where to buy: Amazon
  • Length: 67 pages
  • Genre: Psychologically dark erotica
  • Pairing: MM, non-romantic

I bought On His Knees by Adira August because it’s one of the books that’s part of Books Save Lives. Through May 31 (next Wednesday), August is donating all proceeds to the Russian LGBT Network to save lives of gay Chechens fleeing Chechnya’s anti-gay purge.

Let’s get a few things out of the way first. This isn’t a romance. There’s desire aplenty between the protagonists, but no romantic love.

It’s not stroke fiction, designed to get the average reader off as quickly and dramatically as possible while they hold the book with one hand.

It is erotica. But not in the sense of the (bad) American Heritage Dictionary definition of “literature or art intended to arouse sexual desire” or the (worse) Webster’s New World Dictionary definition of “pornographic books.” No.

On His Knees is erotica in the most basic sense: “stories written about the sexual journey of the characters and how this impacts them as individuals.” (Thanks for that definition, Sylvia Day!) And this particular journey is gritty and gut-wrenching.

Homicide cop Hunter Dane has just dealt with one of the most disturbing crime scenes of his career. (Skim or skip the italicized sections of the narrative if you don’t want to know about it, because even though the descriptions are short, they are vivid and unsettling—a lifetime’s worth of nightmares in a few words.)

He can’t get it out of his head, not by drinking or thinking or talking to a therapist.

Sexual submission is the only thing that helps him deal with his demons. And this time, he needs something extreme. He needs a dominant who will push him past his usual boundaries and break him down. It’s the only way to rid his soul of the terror and anxiety plaguing it.

So he goes to his favorite BDSM club, finds the dominant who has always terrified him, and kneels.

This is the part of the story where you need to either accept that it’s not a how-to for running a proper BDSM club, or put it down and stop reading. Because Camden Snow is a dominant whose rules would get him kicked out of safe-sane-consensual BDSM circles. He doesn’t let his subs choose or use safewords, he doesn’t negotiate contracts, and his specialty is doing exactly the things that subs have previously established as hard limits.

Now, you could argue that this makes what Cam does consensual, because the subs that come to him are specifically looking for him to cross those forbidden boundaries. One of Hunter’s hard limits is bottoming. So when he kneels in front of Cam, Hunter knows it’s pretty much a guarantee that Cam will fuck him up the ass sometime during their scene. And if that’s what he’s looking for, then technically anal sex is no longer a hard limit for Hunter.

But saying he wants Camden to fuck him would make the actual fucking less humiliating, and Hunter has a psychological need to be thoroughly humiliated. So they toss aside safe-sane-consensual rules for the sake of the scene. It also serves the story’s plot well. But whether that’s a good idea for people to do in real life is a whole separate issue.

The rest of the book is the story of their encounter, and Hunter’s psychological unraveling and eventual healing — at least for the time being — as a result of it. Personally, I didn’t find any aspect of the encounter arousing, but that’s not a dig on the book. Arousal wasn’t really the point. The point was Hunter’s journey. Sex was just a means to an end.

The writing itself is vivid without being flowery. The narration varies—sometimes in third person, sometimes in first person from either Hunter or Cam’s point of view. Switches like that can come across as gimmicky, but for me they flowed pretty naturally, and I didn’t get confused about who was telling the story.

But I did feel slightly lost at times. On His Knees is set in an established universe, and I wondered if I’d have a better understanding of Hunter’s character and the BDSM club if I’d read the other books in the RiverHart series.

Overall, though, the story was cohesive and well-written, with a strong narrative voice that many readers will enjoy. I’d recommend this book to people who enjoy psychological dramas, literary erotica, and gritty crime stories.

You can buy On His Knees from any Amazon store worldwide. It’s also on Kindle Unlimited.

(With KU, I assume you’d need to read the whole thing before May 31 for the page-count earnings to go to the Russian LGBT Network.)

The next part of Hunter and Cam’s story, Matchstick Men, will be out later this year.

Find other books with proceeds going to save the lives of gay Chechens at Readers & Writers for LGBT Chechens. There, you can also learn where to make direct donations and send petitions.

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2 thoughts on “Book Review: On His Knees by Adira August (proceeds through May 31 go to Russian LGBT Network)”

  1. This is such a great description of On His Knees, especially making the distinction between what people think erotica is and what it really is. Some do get aroused from the story, they say, but that’s just incidental and about personal preference. Thank you so much for seeing what it is.

    You really wouldn’t know more if you read Desire for Bliss. Except to see Hunt respond to a woman. No sex, though. Knees was just one of a series of shorts I wrote about different characters exploring different sexual dynamics. Hardly any world-building at all.

    The universe is expanding! I loved them so much, I couldn’t let them go. Matchstick Men is the 1st novel in a series of mysteries (Hunter Dane Investigations) and there’s plenty of character development and world-building. (Assuming I did my job right!)

    Hunt even gets to use safewords and there seems to be some romance in the mix. Still switching POVs, though.


    • Ack! I just wrote a brilliant response to this and my computer ate it. Hopefully I can recapture some of my previous wit and wisdom … 😉

      For me, some of the best erotica is the stuff that doesn’t turn me on, because if I keep reading that means the story itself is a compelling one. Though above I probably should have said that getting the reader turned on wasn’t the main or only or an essential point. It’s certainly a point, and a nice side effect for many readers.

      The next book is out! That’s good to know, I bet some of my curiosity about Hunter’s work will be answered there. Maybe a lot of it.

      And hurrah for switching POVs. I know they sometimes get a bad rep, but when they’re done right, they add so much depth to a story. And you do them very well.

      Thanks for stopping by.


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